Thanks!!!

I am still here...in case you are wondering. We, well I guess I haven't had the greatest week in a half. I am still battling my anxiety, but I believe it is on the road outta here. If you have never had anxiety or panic attacks, I hope you never do. What I get is racing heart, sweating, heavy breathing and endless amounts of worrying in my mind. The way my body copes with this is lack of appetite, sleep, and my body was on the go.

Anyway, I started to feel better over the weekend, but come Saturday night I couldn't sleep a wink, so Sunday I was a zombie. We went out to my parent's house and they watched the girls so I could "try" to sleep. But no luck:( So, I figured that Sunday night I would just crash...Nope!!!! Monday I went ahead to work and well I didn't make it more than an hour when the tears started flowing from exhaustion. So, I went home to try to get some sleep. I did get about an hour nap in. We went to my in laws that night and Patty gave me some natural sleeping pills, in hopes of getting some sleep...Again No Sleep!!!! I would fall asleep for about an hour or 2, then wake up, then fall asleep again, then wake up. I was fustrated, emotional, heart racing, etc by Tuesday morning that I didn't know what to do. I really thought I was going CRAZY!!!! My body and mind would no let me relax...It was in Fight/Flight mode. With no sleep and with little food for days is not a good combination. I took the girls to Treva's on Tuesday and went to my in laws to get some rest (when I have anxiety I want to be around people), I slept for a little bit and just rested the rest of the day.
I called the Dr.'s office and they said for me to take my medicine in the morning because the side affect might be causing my insomnia, so I did that. I have now had 2 GOOD nights of rest. I am still having some anxiety in the mornings, but once I get going it seems to go away. I am really hoping that it is gone by this weekend. I really want to enjoy Easter.

I did want to say "Thanks" to everyone that helped me out and gave me verses to read, a kind word, prayers and just a shoulder to cry on. I especially want to say THANKS to Jake and Patty for supper on Monday. Patty thanks for letting me stay at your house all day on Tuesday, I really needed that. Thanks to Kaycee for just listening. Thanks to Greta for the call today. Thanks to Treva for the prayers and watching my girls. Thanks for my parents for watching the girls on Sunday and for Supper on Tuesday. I love you all!!!! A BIG Thanks goes out to Matt...He has been a wonderful, supportive, and my rock especially during my anxiety episodes. He knows what to say or not to say. He knows when to be funny and get me to smile. I love you:)

Until Next Time...

God Bless...

Jess