That Missing Piece

“Heal me, O LORD, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for You are my praise.”

Jeremiah 17:14

I got this verse off of a friend's blog that fits what has been happening in my life and how I got to the place where I am today that I would like to share. I don’t know why I have this urge to write my feelings on a blog that people will read (if people do read this blog), but I guess it is always good to let people know how you get to where you are, and maybe help someone get there too.

Have you ever felt like something is missing in your life? I have been feeling this emptiness inside of me that I couldn’t explain, something that was missing. I have been having this feeling for quite some time and on New Year’s Eve (my resolution); I vowed that I am going to search of this missing piece. I started by not letting certain things get to me, for instance if someone said something to me that offended me or when someone did something that I didn’t agree with or didn’t understand, I needed to have this ‘just let it go’ attitude and not dwell upon it (easier said than done). So, I made this list up that I wanted to work on, to improve myself and fulfill that missing piece.

It wasn’t until about Feburary that Matt and I decided that we needed to start to go to church more than occasionally…Another step in trying to find that missing piece. We wanted to set an example for our daughters (and future child (ren)) that we need to go to church and learn. We always believed in God and Jesus, but I don’t think that we really included him into our lives unless we needed something. We would pray to him to help us when we were sick or if someone was hurt. Sometimes thanking him for our wonderful life. But I don’t think I really let God and Jesus into my life.

Until couple of months ago…somethings happened throughout those past months that personally I just could not let go. I tried, but the more I thought of it the angrier I got. I did not like that feeling, my heart just ached. I loved my family and friends dearly, but I just could not shake this feeling, that it made my life harder. I was in a bad mood, I didn’t enjoy the happier moments in life, I was just not happy, I was just miserable. I needed to put my foot down and say ‘Enough is enough’. And I did just that, I would see my friends that were happy (even if something bad had happened, they were still happy and secure within themselves) and I would wonder ‘what do they have’. Then a light went off. They had that ‘missing piece’ I have been looking for—GOD! Yes, I looked upon God to help me, guide me to the right way of life, to lift this feeling from my heart. Let me tell you as soon as I did I felt lighter, I felt overjoyed, and it seems that I have this whole new look on life.

Not saying that I am perfect, by all means I am not and I am still learning from God, and will continue to learn through him all the days of my life. I am still struggling with ‘letting go’ of things, but I look upon God to help guide me.